The Self That I Am
Who am I…?? I am not a man of many words really. I do like to write my thoughts and feelings, perceptions and discoveries; however, in person, I’m not really into chit-chatting or talking too much. Not even with my neighbors, friends, or even family. I like to be direct and blunt when I speak.
I like to observe and keep my personal, innermost discoveries or thoughts to myself, unless I feel a need to make myself heard by others, which it rarely happens because I don’t really concern myself with what others think or feel about my behavior or the way I am. And it is so because I value my mental freedom more than anything else in life.
What I Know For Certain
And I know that in society it is promoted and influenced in us to always be extremely friendly, and smile a lot, and to be very kind, and to be accepting of everything in terms of other people’s behaviors. But this is why most people, without knowing, fall into fakeness.
Not being yourself entirely, or adjusting yourself to your surroundings or to the feelings of others, is just very exhausting and damaging to your own mental wellbeing. This inevitably leads to physical illnesses and traumas, no matter your age or emotional strength. It is just not me, because it is not freedom.
The Heights of Self
What I am, what I seek, what I value the most above everything else is freedom. Freedom to tell it how it is. Freedom to control my failure and success. Freedom to control what I choose, what and how I feel, and what I want in my path and direction in life.
Not fitting into philosophies, and into groups, and into systems, and into romantic ideals. Because fitting into these, whether you understand it or not, means you are enslaved, which means you cannot be entirely yourself because somebody else controls you. Once you fully accept yourself, and put yourself above everything else, is simple really.
- Asa Rodriguez - 